Morning,Sunshine.

Assalamualaikum.

Once,I said that to forget someone,is to hate someone.

I am sorry for those who I had corrupted with this unthoughtful idea.

Hate doesn't make us forget someone,it blinded us with that particular someone's good and we will only see the ugly side of him or her.

I am very sorry with this.

Maybe,it's better not to forget.It's a memory,we should treasure it.

And I've learned,that deep down inside,there's a light that never goes out.

Envy

Assalamualaikum.

Masih wujud lagi perasaan iri hati dan cemburu yang membuak,walaupun aku tahu kau bukanlah apa yang ada untuk aku.

Perasaan cemburu yang hanya memberi tumbukan yang tajam menusuk jantung,tapi tiada apa-apa kesan pada kau.

betul lah apa yang Roy Mustang kata, 'Envy is truly an ugly thing.'

Oh,berubahlah.

Assalamualaikum.

Aku sudah letih lesu melihat laman blog ini, penuh dengan post yang berunsurkan kehampaan dan kejatuhan.

Seperti membawa maksud hidup aku penuh dengan kehampaan dan kejatuhan.

Perubahan diperlukan.

Biarlah orang tahu hidup aku tidak selalu jatuh, selalunya naik dan memuncak.

Terasa hati

Assalamualaikum.

Aku bukan lah manusia sempurna,dapat menyelaraskan diri dengan apa yang orang lain mahukan.

Jika kesalahan kecil pon dianggap kesalahan sepertinya aku telah membunuh orang,maaflah,itu bukanlah salah aku.

Jika kau mahu sempurna sangat,kau pergilah buat dunia kau sendiri.

Seperti kau mencabar Kuasa yang Lebih Besar kerana mahu semuanya sempurna.

Kau tidak mampu lakukan yang itu.

JIka kesalahan sekecil zarah kau anggap sebesar semesta,maaflah,itu memang bukan salah aku.

Begini lah.

Assalamualaikum.

Di saat seorang sahabat aku kecundang dengan perasaan,aku kecundang dengan masa silam.

Your image,I tried so hard to re-construct,yet,only a blurred images were screened.

Once in a while,I would like to see you again in the memories born when our fate intertwined.

Yet,I know,you will never know that I try so hard to let you know how excruciating I am now to let you go,to make choices while ignoring the Higher Power that will forever help me to go through this life.

I am so much startled to see that how ugly is the after effect of a choice made by my lust,pride and jealousy.

If ever I could have such power to do as what you have done,forgetting every piece of the past,and move straight ahead to the future.

Maybe the only thing I can do is to think that you deserve better,and forgetting me is a way to make your life to be in a better state.

I know this will only be a one-side conversation,as these words will never be in your knowing.

Hidup ini tidak lah seperti permainan video yang selalunya kita boleh menang selalu.

Ieqmal Emeer,kemenangan masih belum lagi milik kita.

Inilah yang ada.

Assalamualaikum.

Tiada lagi kata-kata yang tercipta di dalam minda untuk ditekapkan disini,masih lagi kosong.

Masih tidak tahu arah tuju,adakah itu betul,adakah itu salah.

Masih lagi keliru.Petunjuk yang diberi tidak mahu diikuti,masih lagi berkeras hati.

Yang ada di depan mata dikaburkan,yang tersembunyi dicari,memburu tanpa henti.

Kekal berkata-kata dengan mulut,tapi kurang melakukan dengan tangan.

Masih tidak tahu apa yang perlu,dan apa yang mahu.

Maaf atas repekan ini,kesulitan amat dikesali.

Sekian.

Second Wave of Despair

The second semester has ended.I thought it was a good semester,but,too much happened during this semester.I wasn't myself most of the time.The only time I am me were when I am with my friends.Too many things happened that hurted me within,caused some bleeding,incurable in these short times.Yet,I know,this won't stop me.
And,for those who are trying to forget me,I won't care anymore.As long as it's something you wanted to do,I won't stop.And I am very sorry for the action I acted,the selfishness,the jealousy,the stupidity.I'm glad I met you,eventhough it's me that destroyed the relation.
I am a destroyer.
There are many things I need to learn in this world,as some might say,everything won't go the way you wanted to,it's called reality.
Hear me,these feelings that i thought once to be true,now,a despair to me.