Oh,berubahlah.

Assalamualaikum.

Aku sudah letih lesu melihat laman blog ini, penuh dengan post yang berunsurkan kehampaan dan kejatuhan.

Seperti membawa maksud hidup aku penuh dengan kehampaan dan kejatuhan.

Perubahan diperlukan.

Biarlah orang tahu hidup aku tidak selalu jatuh, selalunya naik dan memuncak.

Terasa hati

Assalamualaikum.

Aku bukan lah manusia sempurna,dapat menyelaraskan diri dengan apa yang orang lain mahukan.

Jika kesalahan kecil pon dianggap kesalahan sepertinya aku telah membunuh orang,maaflah,itu bukanlah salah aku.

Jika kau mahu sempurna sangat,kau pergilah buat dunia kau sendiri.

Seperti kau mencabar Kuasa yang Lebih Besar kerana mahu semuanya sempurna.

Kau tidak mampu lakukan yang itu.

JIka kesalahan sekecil zarah kau anggap sebesar semesta,maaflah,itu memang bukan salah aku.

Begini lah.

Assalamualaikum.

Di saat seorang sahabat aku kecundang dengan perasaan,aku kecundang dengan masa silam.

Your image,I tried so hard to re-construct,yet,only a blurred images were screened.

Once in a while,I would like to see you again in the memories born when our fate intertwined.

Yet,I know,you will never know that I try so hard to let you know how excruciating I am now to let you go,to make choices while ignoring the Higher Power that will forever help me to go through this life.

I am so much startled to see that how ugly is the after effect of a choice made by my lust,pride and jealousy.

If ever I could have such power to do as what you have done,forgetting every piece of the past,and move straight ahead to the future.

Maybe the only thing I can do is to think that you deserve better,and forgetting me is a way to make your life to be in a better state.

I know this will only be a one-side conversation,as these words will never be in your knowing.

Hidup ini tidak lah seperti permainan video yang selalunya kita boleh menang selalu.

Ieqmal Emeer,kemenangan masih belum lagi milik kita.

Inilah yang ada.

Assalamualaikum.

Tiada lagi kata-kata yang tercipta di dalam minda untuk ditekapkan disini,masih lagi kosong.

Masih tidak tahu arah tuju,adakah itu betul,adakah itu salah.

Masih lagi keliru.Petunjuk yang diberi tidak mahu diikuti,masih lagi berkeras hati.

Yang ada di depan mata dikaburkan,yang tersembunyi dicari,memburu tanpa henti.

Kekal berkata-kata dengan mulut,tapi kurang melakukan dengan tangan.

Masih tidak tahu apa yang perlu,dan apa yang mahu.

Maaf atas repekan ini,kesulitan amat dikesali.

Sekian.

Second Wave of Despair

The second semester has ended.I thought it was a good semester,but,too much happened during this semester.I wasn't myself most of the time.The only time I am me were when I am with my friends.Too many things happened that hurted me within,caused some bleeding,incurable in these short times.Yet,I know,this won't stop me.
And,for those who are trying to forget me,I won't care anymore.As long as it's something you wanted to do,I won't stop.And I am very sorry for the action I acted,the selfishness,the jealousy,the stupidity.I'm glad I met you,eventhough it's me that destroyed the relation.
I am a destroyer.
There are many things I need to learn in this world,as some might say,everything won't go the way you wanted to,it's called reality.
Hear me,these feelings that i thought once to be true,now,a despair to me.

Hand's UP!!!!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

The second semester has begun,and it was great.
There's new friends,new teachers,new shirts and certainly new gir.....i mean....knowledge.
throw out the last part.
And there's SMAC,stands for Sports and Martial Arts Carnival.
Being the most minor course in UIA,ICT had a only a few mombers to participate in this carnival,so,i had to participate.
Mule2,nk masok Rugby and Basketball,but my heart went to Basketball instead.

Here's the story.
Basketball trainings was tiring like hell.
turun pukul 8.45,main sampai pukul 12.30.
during the training period,my mind wasn't concentrating to studies,so,haritu quiz pon lintang pukang lah.
But,I don't care,because that's the pirce I gotta pay.
Sambong crite basket,I meet many new friends.
There's Jimmy,our captain,Amar,our ace,AJ the pointer,Rahman,pon slalu amik point gak,Najmi,the newest member,Akmal,Syahmi,Ikhwan,Amin and Haziq.Ni teammates aku.
Dari team lain,aku ingat,Zaidan panjang,Man,captain engine,Farabi,Aliff and ade la player2 yg hebat2 belake.

It was fun.
Eventhough Jimmy slalu marah2 dgn kedaifan kitorang main basketball,dye still train kitorang.
Thank You,jimmy.

The best part of all,we got 2nd place in the basketball tournament.
Of course la !st place won by Engenius.Semue player UIA kot.
Tapi,we almost won.
It's okay la en.
Next time,we'll get them.

Till then,later.
Salam.

reTURN to DARKness

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

The end of my days of leisure has arrive.

It's my time to shine.

I've learned how to properly study now.

But I'm not gonna tell about what's in the future.

What I did for the whole three weeks of holiday,almost everyday,I will be on the line,eat,sleep and play my nintendo.

Once a week,there'll be a movie I watch at the cinema.

For the first week,i went to watch G-Force,second was Surrogates,third was Papadom.

Among these movies,I like Papadom the most.

Maybe because it's a Malaysian production,but,mostly I think I like it because of Liyana Jasmay and Afdlin Shauki.

Both of them are a great actor and actress.

Other than the movies,something new to me is that I got new friends.

Nice to meet you,friends.

Hope we will be friends forever.

Nice knowing you guys.

And,although,I am missing an old friend,that I try so hard to contact her,but,unable to do so.

Yeah,I know,move on.

A new semester is going to start.

A new mission,a new vision.

Guys,let's go to the top.

Gambatte kudasai.

Ja~~ne..

Assalamualaikum.